Thursday, January 31, 2008

This Is The Day!

These days the journey seems impossible. I am reminded, however, that "I know whom I have believed, and am convinced that he is able to guard what I have entrusted to him for that day (2 Timothy 1:12)." In the middle of the darkest night He is light. His unwavering faithfulness has no end. Oh to let Him transform me completely into the likeness of Jesus!

I am singing "This is the day (this is the day), that the Lord has made (that the Lord has made).
I will rejoice (I will rejoice), and be glad in it (and be glad in it)."


Bonus picts:
Christmas photos and our family having fun in the rain and snow....

Our Christmas Eve reenactment of the Christmas story. Friends joined us as Mary and Joseph.



Ducky Trey and Ladybug Lil'


We had the joy of staying at a cabin in Truckee for a few days. God answered my prayers for snow--it practically snowed the whole time! I loved lying in the snow and feeling it fall on my face. We also saw some terrific snow crystals and cut some out of paper to bring home. Some more photos are in the blog above.

Saturday, December 15, 2007

Our Christmas Letter


Dear Friends and Family,

As we think about the past year, so many things come to mind. Some small pieces include:

Carl - (36) - In the midst of constant challenges, God is good. He keeps teaching me patience and waiting on Him. My wife continues to be one of His greatest gifts to me. The four little ones are an added bonus. Proverbs 16:32 is a favorite: “Better a patient man than a warrior.”

Kerstin -- “Kasteen” (35) - The one place I am finding myself more and more is in the shelter of the Most High (Psalm 31:20). I trust God. That’s where Mary found herself with this unexpected turn of events in her life as she awaited the Messiah growing within her. That must have been something of a surprise! Everything that followed had to send her there, to that Shelter. So many times this year I have wondered at God’s ways, questioned, cried, laughed, and hunkered down in His sheltering care. Nothing has been as delightful as His continual presence. He keeps bringing me back to the basics: love Him, and love others. In all the things I enjoy other than Him and the people He has put in my life (Things I enjoy: painting, indoor soccer, photography, gardening, baking...) nothing compares to this Jesus whose birth we are celebrating. I am thankful for God making Himself known in the Bible and through His Spirit within me. As Isaiah 28:12 says, “This is the resting place, let the weary rest.” He is that place. Come Lord Jesus!Johanna (10--double digits!!!) - Hanna is a treasure. She thinks of how she can bring joy to those around with gifts and service. Some mornings we wake up and Hanna already has the little ones changed and eating breakfast downstairs. There is always a party or a show going on that Hanna instigated. She’ll sit Lily and Trey on the stairs and tell them when to clap. Hanna is a ballerina, often doing pirouettes in the kitchen (once sending a glass bowl with egg in it flying). She can’t wait to get toe shoes. Hanna also loves horses and sewed a cowgirl outfit that she wears quite frequently. Highlights this year for Hanna include our trip to Germany, time in Santa Barbara with family, and camping in our tent trailer. Both Hanna and Maggie also started the whole orthodontic adventure this year. They are excited about growing older (which they try to pinpoint frequently how they’re actually doing that).

Magdeline (8) - Maggie is our little love. She still prefers to be upside down or in a tree. We love Maggie’s creative way of looking at the world. She drives Hanna nuts sometimes with her stories that are often not true. One morning she said that she heard a tiger on the roof during the night. Another day Maggie says, “I want to go to Spain (meaning Mexico).” Or “I like the way God made your face.” Recent dreams include one that “Mama will have 5 babies in May” and “We were on an island and we caught a whale.” Maggie told someone “I might have to get a heart attack (meaning head gear)!” She also said she did “all of my difficulties (meaning chores).” Maggie uses her own language to emphasize things. If she’s really, really hot or thirsty, she’ll say she’s “beaming hot, beaming thirsty” or “burstin hot, bursting thirsty” or “pure hot, pure thirsty, pure tired.” When Maggie wants to open doors for people she calls herself a “door monkey.” She plays so nicely with the little ones. Trey calls her “Mimi.” Maggie’s favorite thing about Jesus is that “he is going to build a house and I’m going to him.”

Lilyana (3 1/2) - Lily is our little princess. She loves to dress up or color. She happily plays in an imaginary world where her friend Leann does naughty things. If Lily does something wrong, “Leann did it.” “Leann pulled my hair.” Carl tried to convince Lily that Leann moved to Australia, but she still pops up again occasionally. She calls her older sisters “Hannamaggie” and repeats their stories as her own. Lily prefers to sleep on the floor sometimes, or face different ways in her bed. She seriously talks about things being “compicated” and sits next to me and says, “So, how aw your kids? I like your kids--they’re butiful!” When I go to swim laps she says, “I hope you don’t swallow too much water or drown” or “Don’t foget to take your shirt off so it not get wet.” Lily tells stories about a pink hippopotamus, or tells me that tomorrow she won’t be here because she’ll be with her husband and we can talk on the telephone. She is so petite (weighs the same as her little brother) but by far the most expressive child. Her eyebrows go up and eyes wide when she says, “I firsty.” Knuckles are “handy dans.” “When me die, I say, ‘Hi Jesus!’ And that not foolish talk!”

Carl III a.k.a. “Trey” (22 months) - Trey is our little joy. He loves all of his sisters and they sure love him. He is a typical boy--loves balls, trains, cars, loud noises, blocks, animals, drawing on our walls or floors, and throwing himself on the ground with a grunt. Trey/Carl doesn’t like to eat anything that isn’t in the sugar food group (favorites are “coo-key”, “ice eeem”, “lol pop”, “canee”, and “joooosss”). He has to say “So-wee” (sorry) a lot. Trey loves to race around the kitchen on his car with Lily on her car. It is especially interesting while I’m trying to fix dinner. “Sit, Da-dee, sit,” he’ll say and pat the floor next to him. We all love to chase him and tickle him while he chuckles and chortles. “I know” means “I don’t know. “Wa appen, Mama, wa appen?” he’ll repeat over and over. Sometimes he’ll empathize, “Oh no!” Everything gets said twice. I’ll ask him where he is while he hides under his “Kiki” (blanky). His answer, “I wite hea.”

We wish you a very Merry Christmas, and God’s peace in 2008.

Saturday, November 3, 2007

Children Are Terrific!

Here are some photos of this past week's festivities. We enjoy going to the neighbors we know and greeting children we don't on Halloween. Our door always has a big sign on it:
Jesus said, "I am the light of the world.
Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness

but will have the light of life."

John 8:12

How amazing, that the God of All has given us light in the darkness. He promises us the LIGHT OF LIFE! Hallelujah!

I have mixed feelings about Halloween. The huge amount of evil, gore, and wickedness celebrated makes me leery of even acknowledging it. A seminary professor challenged Christian America by saying that he had just come from the mission field and found it odd that on the day that the world opened their doors and actually came knocking, no Christians were to be found. Their houses are dark and they are at their local chapel having a Harvest Festival. So we have attempted to love our neighbors and share the light of Christ with them on this day. Here we are...Our cowgirl, Hanna. She "made" her outfit using some clothes we found at the Good Will. If anyone asks Hanna where she's from, she'll answer, "Dallas, Texas!" (She was born there.)

Maggie is such a cute bird. She loves to flutter around and says cute things like, "I'm STEAMING thirsty!"
Little Carl, or Trey, is our Froggie. He enjoyed taking "ca-dee, ca-dee, Mama" with both hands and even disappearing into friends' houses to play while we were chatting at the front door. He can say "pupkin" and "ca-dee", but his favorite things by far are "coo-kee" and "ice-eem." He has lilting speech where he repeats things 2 times, going up in notes first and down for the repeated word. "Mama, Mama."
Princess Lily always wants to be a princess! The girls desperately tried to persuade her to be an elephant, but she would not waver. This little girl is a princess at heart, always a picky eater requesting "nap-kin please" at each meal.

So you know the story The Frog Prince...here is our little frog prince and his princess!
Except that our froggie doesn't seem terribly pleased about getting a kiss!

Of course the frog decides giving kisses is part of the fun!

Monday, October 22, 2007

Encouragement to Mamas

I have been sooo exhausted lately, and the load so heavy. I want to write this down not to whine or complain, but so I remember and can in the future encourage others in this stage of life. Parenting is definitely a HUGE job, especially when there are sooo many needs. Ok, I do get I get up out of bed when there are noises or fingers poking me. Right away there are squabbles that need to be refereed, stinky diapers to change (perhaps even a bath that needs to happen due to leakage), bottoms and noses to wipe, things to pick up, tasks to be allocated, milk and food prepared, nonstop questions to answer...and all this before 7 am! My kids are 9, 8, 3, and 19 months....I homeschool too. So lately it has been clear that this is a 24/7 thing, and that I MUST abide in the Lord Jesus 24/7. He loves children, that's clear. The Bible is strangely silent about parenting aside from talking about children being a blessing and that they must be disciplined...and of course the parallels between parenting and God being our parent and us being His children.

The thing is, my head is often swirling and I would love a break occasionally. So if you know a mother of young children, have GRACE for her! Her brain doesn't work quite up-to-speed either. Pray for her and her children. Love her little ones. Offer to give her a break. Stop by with some flowers, or a meal. Come over with work gloves on to clean, organize, or get on the floor and listen to little stories. Young mothers need lots of encouragement! They are lonely. They need to hear how incredible their task is, and how valuable. They need to hear how amazing their little ones are. They would love commitment (i.e. "I'll be praying for you every day. I'll be over every Weds. morning from 9-1 to do whatever you'd like and would love to just spend time with your sweet little ones! I'll make you dinner every Weds. too!"---Ok, this is really something from my dreams!!!!)

Anyway, these are some of the things I have felt and learned that I want to remember. I KNOW these days are fleeting and I have so much to be thankful for, but I do struggle. And maybe someone will understand what I am talking about. I know the Father does.
"He tends his flock like a shepherd:
He gathers the lambs in his arms
and carries them close to his heart;
he gently leads those that have young."
Isaiah 40:11

Saturday, October 6, 2007

Camping Refugio, Santa Barbara & Veteran's Memorial Park, Monterey


We got back this week from a camping "vacation" (a blast but a lot of work! with little ones). Here are some pictures...Our first stop was Refugio State Beach, north of Santa Barbara. We camped, played in the ocean, in the sand, explored, went to Solvang...definitely a fun time.


Then we headed down to Georg and Jacqueline's, after which we drove up to Monterey and spent 2 nights at Veteran's Memorial Park Campground (very nice) and went to Monterey Bay Aquarium. We enjoyed eating Fish & Chips after taking this picture--


Here is a Bonus Picture--Maggie's 8th birthday!


This particular painting won 1st and Best of Medium (acrylic) at the Sonoma County Harvest Fair this weekend.

Thursday, September 6, 2007

Love

I just finished reading the book of Acts in the New Testament of the Bible. What an incredible account of what happened after Jesus left Earth. His followers became bold, well-spoken, miracle-working, both despised and followed men and women. Their message was urgent, "Repent and believe in Jesus today! He is IT!!!!" They were beaten bloody and it made them whine and complain? Nope. They were singing praise songs in prison at midnight. Strangely amazing! How can this be? The Ultimate Fulfiller was filling them with an attitude able to offer love songs when it didn't make a lick of sense.

They finally realized that no person except God can fulfill. The apostle Paul says many times, "It is because of my hope in what God has promised" (Acts 27:6), the fulfillment of the promises since the beginning of creation, that Paul and the other followers of "the Way" teach and endure so much "to open [non-Jew's] eyes and turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan to God, so that they may receive forgiveness of sins and a place among those who are sanctified by faith in [Jesus]" (Acts 26:18). Yippee!!! It doesn't matter what happens in life--whether things always go well or, as some (including me) stumble over, when things go wrong for a "good" person. What matters is God--and loving Him wholeheartedly. No holds bared. At midnight, beaten up, whatever.

I read a great quote today that suggests that just as we want to be loved the way we are without too much inspection and criticism, perhaps God longs for us to love Him the same way. Not questioning but just loving. He is God. And, after all, "He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all--how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?....Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword?....No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord" (Romans 8:32, 35, 37-39, written by Paul after lots of trials and torture). Who is the perfect Lover? God through Jesus. Does He make sense in His love? Not to us, but I am free by His grace to love Him completely in the middle of the crazy, chaos that this life tosses my way!

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Waiting

A dear sister in Christ and I were talking recently...about waiting. God sure makes us wait a lot. It's all through the Bible too. Noah waited for rain as he built the ark in faith, Abraham and Sarah waited for a child a really long time, the Israelites wandered and waited for someone to become the permanent scapegoat for sin and for the curse of it to go away forever. We wait too.

Lately I've been waiting for things to go smoothly, but they don't always. I wait in traffic, for resolution of conflict, for my feelings to change from gray to sunny, for my loneliness to go away and never come back, for my children to grow up, for my art to sell or for direction with getting children's books published (a dream of mine), for my comfort, to lose weight, and for my speech to be edifying. I am always hopeful that things would PERMANENTLY change.

As I read in Luke 5 today, Jesus tells Simon to put down his nets. Simon has been waiting and working ALL NIGHT without catching a single thing. I definitely feel like that sometimes. Nothing is changing. Nothing is working. Nothing makes sense. Why isn't this working out? Why do I need to keep waiting, Lord?

Jesus had to wait. He grew up, he traveled, he taught, he loved ceaselessly, he served constantly, he HAD to be frustrated as so many heard but didn't really hear. He knew thoughts and intentions of hearts. He had to wait to do His Father's will in His Father's time. He had to wait to die, knowing it was coming. But Jesus had His eyes fixed on His Father at all times. "Not my will, but thine." He challenges Simon to keep going after no results and Simon says, "Master, we've worked hard all night and haven't caught anything. But because you say so, I will let down the nets" (Luke 5:5). They caught so many fish that their nets began to break! In the same way Noah watched the torrent of water and was saved, Abraham and Sarah had a baby boy and laughed a lot, and the Israelites have Jesus and lots of exciting promises yet to come.

Waiting. It really goes hand in hand with faith. Trusting Him who you do not see. Trusting His timing is really right. Trusting He controls it perfectly. Trusting Him changing my heart. Trusting His sufficiency in my struggles. Trusting Him to work in those around me. And as the struggle to not abide in Him and wait rages...remaining faithful. I want to say, "Because You say so, Jesus!"